As of the last writing I was still waiting to find out if I had to go back in for a second Mohs surgery (to remove cancer). If you looked at last week’s pictures you might have guessed that I wasn’t looking forward to a round two. The good news is that I don’t have to go back in because the margins were clear after the first surgery. In fact, it occurs to me that if things had been different, I’d be in the waiting room right now instead of writing to you, dear reader.
The other good news from this week is even though I needed help changing my bandages for the first four days, I finally changed them on my own last night. To be clear, there isn’t much physical pain associated with it, but looking at it was (and still is) mentally jarring. It felt good to be self-reliant on the matter.
So, where are things now? Well, I’ve got ten days before going in for ocular plastic surgery to close the wound. There isn’t any real way of knowing exactly what that procedure will look like until the day of the surgery at which point the plastic surgeon will assess how things are healing and what she has to work with during the operation. She prepared me for the possibility that my lower eyelid may have to be stitched to my eyebrow for a week or two (to stop the skin’s natural tendency of stretching down to heal the wound). Obviously I’m hoping that doesn’t need to happen because, frankly, it scares the shit out of me. But, if that’s what needs to be done to keep my eyelid functioning the way it’s supposed to and that’s what she thinks is the necessary course of action, then I guess that’s what has to be done. I’ve added two photos to the gallery to show what the wound looked like five days after the Mohs surgery (it looks less gnarly!) and my first self-bandaging. As I mentioned in a previous post, some of the photos are a bit intense and if you’re squeamish you probably shouldn’t click on the link.
As always, thank you for all of your love and support. I haven’t quite hit complete stability. My brain still has a tendency to spin out a bit. But talking with you on the phone, texts, email, and DM has been a welcome bright spot. I hope all is going well in your neck of the woods and that you continue to wear your sunscreen.
Yr Pal Ben